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  • Jun. 20th, 2008 at 12:03 AM
When life gets frustrating...
Well, I've been home for more than a month and I've not made a post yet. After being AWOL for weeks, I was procrastinating, a polite way for saying that I’m horribly lazy.

This is going to be a long post.

I came back home a month ago, after a year of fun, frolic and of course, hard work at BITS Pilani-Goa Campus. Home feels so different after dorm-life. Walking into anyone’s rooms, grabbing people’s food, flirting and scandalizing my friends, walking *grumble* at least 500 m to get to the nearest source of hot food, staring at the cute teachers, ah, everything seems so different now.

It’s like I’ve lost pace, I’ve settled down, become comfortable just lazing my days away at home, a thought which unsettles me. I look at the grass-stained shirt, the jeans that have never faded in the past seven years and continue to be loose, the track-pants destroyed by bleaching them too much after spending a day on the beach, two doves given to me by my friends on a birthday cake.

I’ve never had so much fun, except possibly the last two years of my school life, 9th and 10th grade. I’m still in touch with several of my friends from School, warm, sweet, wonderful people who have made my days a lot brighter. And then I have my other RL friends, the ones at BITS, crazy, funny, nerdy and intelligent people who all score more than I do! And I’ve always had you guys, thanks to Inuyasha and other assorted fandoms. *Group hug*

I do hope everyone has been doing well here. I have missed you all soooo much. *tear*

As for me, I’m trying to get back into writing. Again, my muse has decided to pull a Rip Van Winkle on me, but I’m forcing myself to write, hehe. That reminds me, I need a beta for two fics I’ve written for [info]femslash08 . One is a long Gossip Girl fic involving some heavy duty femmeslash, and other is a small fic from the Sarah Connor Chronicles Universe. Help me out please? XD


And this meme from [info]the_firefly really caught my attention….

You know how sometimes people on your friend's list post about stuff going on in their life, and all of a sudden you think "Wait a minute? Since when are they working THERE? Since when are they dating HIM/HER? Since when???" And then you wonder how you could have missed all that seemingly pretty standard information, but somehow you feel too ashamed to ask for clarification because it seems like info you *should* already know? It happens to all of us sometimes.

Please copy mine below, erase my answers putting yours in their place then post it in your journal! Please elaborate on the questions that would benefit from elaboration! One-Word-Answers seldom help anyone out.


Answers under the cut….. 


When life gets frustrating...


 Ola, everyone!

 Here's wishing you all had great Christmases and had a blast on the New year's. I hope this new year is filled with happiness for all of you.

Well, so my vacation is coming to an end. My flight to Goa is in 6 hours and as usual, the packing is last-minute. *sheepish grin* To tell the truth, my holidays were very boring and unproductive. But the biggest highlight was that I could get to talk to all of you. And I met quite a few of my RL friends, and I got to eat yummy food! (mostly from restaurants, 'coz my mom is a horrible cook)

Thos sem, I'll try to be more active on LJ, and hopefully my writing muse will also rise from hibernation. Poor thing apparently doesn't like cold winters and warm quilts, under which she's sleeping.

You guys helped me make myself a better person. This is thank you for everyone who has been with me through all those painful rants and stuff. And believe me, I was lurking on LJ as much as I could.

Now for the holidays. This time, I spent a lot of time eating and watching TV on my Computer. Completed all eight seasons of That 70's show. *grin* I really liked the whole growing up in the 70's concept. The Disco music, the clothes, everything seemed so authentic. I really liked the character of Kitty Forman, she was one cool mum.

Talking about that show, they had an episode which had a lot of purple prose in it. ROFL. "The princess tentatively touched the Duke's sword....." reminded of lots of discussions we'd had on these topics.

Another great watch was How I met your Mother. The show is hilarious, and Barney sent me into OMG! mode. That's quite a change from ye olde Doogie Howser.

Watched a lot of anime like Bleach, Furuba, Blood+ and Elfen Lied. The last one was a bit too gory for me, but the character portrayals, and showing the two sides of Lucy were done very well.That one will go down my favourites list.

And now, top 5 movies that I've seen....

1. Man from earth- It's brilliant. Like a dark one-act play, and brilliantly illustrates how a simple conversation can bring out the best and worst in people.

2. Memento- Chilling and brilliant. The whole ambiguous storyline and the indefinite conclusion makes it for me.

3. My Fair Lady- Sweet romantic old Rom-Com, and Audrey Hepburn's accent really threw me off. Great acting and lovely songs from another era.

4.Transamerica- Another unique story. Loved the father-son relationship. And Felicity Huffman really deserved an Oscar for this.

5. She's the man- Cute soccer movie. Darned cute.

And top 5 songs........

1. Hallowed be thy name- Cradle of Filth
2. Lazarus- Porcupine tree
3. Coming Back to life- Pink Floyd
4.Samskeyti- Sigur Ros
 5. Bandey- Indian ocean

Mostly a huge rock list. hehe. So now it's back to BITS, and clwaning my room, staying up till2-3am to talk to friends. Back to sitting in my friends' rooms and bitching about the guys, and talking about the hot teacher's extremely "gropable" butt. *evil grin*.

I'll try and be backj online as soon as possible. *glomphugs to everyone*




MWEWWY CHWISTMAS!

  • Dec. 25th, 2007 at 7:42 AM
Inner Beauty
A very Merry Christmas to all of you! Wish the new year brings hope and peace to you all.....

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Is lifea sea or a river?

  • Nov. 8th, 2007 at 10:05 PM
When life gets frustrating...
Aloha and hello guys!
 
Okay, so I start with a reason for me being almost AWOL. *sheepish grin* I had exams over the the last month…and one coming up in a few days. Don’t ask me about them, heh….
 
Firstly, happy birthday to anyone whose I’ve missed, Nokomarie, Nelson and Dreaming_trees included. Mwah to you great people. And also big hugs to all of you, and I hope everything is alright.
 
I finally got my Diwali break, and am trying to enjoy with my parents in Vasco, the city near BITS. This is kind of a long post about my new life…hee.


So to sum up my life, the things I’ve learned in BITS goa are:-
 
  1. You cannot study in college. Don’t think about it.
  2. There are people who will sit with you and have philosophical discussions about topics ranging from war to why D-gray man and Trinity Blood show parallels.
  3. Oh, and every discussion will start and end with the topic of sex or innuendo.
  4. Guys will discuss girls’ butts in front of you…and every sentence is punctuated by an expletive.
  5.  It’s better to read porn than to watch it.
  6. Rock music is king and Metallica and Iron Maiden sound great.
  7. Sigur Ros is love!!!!!!!
  8. There are a lot of activities that you will try your hand at and end up screwing your grades.
  9. You can actually drool over a teacher and stare at his extremely ahem…nice tush.
  10. You can wake up at 12 am and no one will say anything.
 
I’ve missed you all terribly…and I know I’ve not been there but I still miss ya guys and read your fanfics, and read your posts sometimes.
 
And HAPPY DIWALI! Mwah, mwah,mwah…
 

I can has crush on hawt teacher?

  • Aug. 16th, 2007 at 12:20 AM
When life gets frustrating...



Another small update from this part of the world.......

 I'm so much better, thanks to all of you who commented on my post. I'm doing fine, having fun, eating little, and washing my clothes by hand, hehe....

I have got the internet here, but the speeds are pathetic. I've never seen such slow speeds ever, not even 10 years ago when I started on it.  I can't check my mail. The only thing that works here is the Intranet. I'm planning to get a faster connection through my mobile phone soon. It took 30 minutes to open LJ.

The campus is very beautiful, and we celebrated India's Independence day. Studies are quite relaxed as of now....I don't wanna stress out right now! Most of the teachers are good, and there is an extremely hot one. I blame Feni's Yashita for this one. Hey Yash, why do they make kinds like you?

The library and lecture halls are huge, and I hate the walking part, but I still like it. Now on with the teacher story...

This one looks like Charlie Eppes from Numb3rs and extra hot, and how I discovered he was a teacher is a bit shocking. I was in the library and while taking out a pretty heavy book, I stepped on his toe. Thought he was a senior student and told him "Sorry, bhaiya." "Bhaiya" means Elder brother in Hindi, and we use it for school seniors. He gave me a wide smile and pointed out he was a teacher. This followed a round of "Sorry's" till he was laughing out loud. He said he'd probably be teaching me next semester probably and asked me to take it easy.

Why, universe? *giggle*

On a more serious note, I hope all of you are safe and sound. The bridge collapse really worried me, and I hope everything is fine. I also know some of you are having a bad time, so hold on, dears. *hugs*

I do so hope the DA and LJ wank has died down, and everything's okay. And oh, a happy B'DAY in advance to

[info]silverontherose

I really miss talking to you guys. A lot. I hope I get a better connection soon.

*blows kisses*

A Quick update

  • Aug. 3rd, 2007 at 5:48 PM
When life gets frustrating...
 Hi, guys! I promised to keep you all updated, so here ya go!

 My internet is not working yet, could take  a few more days. I'm using my father's cell currently for the net.

 I was down with fever, hyperacidity and a nasty sprain all these days....so I didn't update earlier. Goa is uber-cool, the weather is nice, albeit humid (which makes it difficult for me, as I sweat profusely), and has been raining like hell for the past few days.

The campus is huge, and walking from one end to another is really trying. But there are lots of amenities, the lecture halls are good...everything is great!

The only problem is the washing clothes bit. Turns out the hostels don't have token-operated washers, so we have to do it by hand! Luckily, there is a laundry in the shopping complex. I'm planning to go there once a week to give my clothes for wash.

Also the mess lines are loooooong and the food is so-so,but it's college!

My mum is staying with me till tomorrow, mainly because I've still got to recover,but I like it out here. I'm scred of the fact that I have to do my room, clothes etc. everything alone after she's gone.*sighs and stares at broom*

On the upside, I hardly got any classes right now,huh? Only 4 classes a day, with 6 once a week. It's really odd,having all that free time....I'm reading a lot of novels during that time, hee. Also, I got this giant yellow teddy for my room, he's sooooooooo adorable.

*squishes to you guys* I have to get back to LJ as soon as possible, I miss ya all too much!
When life gets frustrating...

All my bags are packed
I'm ready to go.....
 
 Well, this is it. Day after tomorrow, on Wednesday, I'm leaving for College. Finally.

I'll be going to the Birla Institute of Technology,Pilani- Goa Campus to do a Bachelor's in Chemical Engineering. 

I've never left home before, and it seems awkward. Maybe I'll miss my parents a little bit, because I am a big girl now, and I'm not a crybaby type. Mostly though, I'll miss my city, my favourite haunts, and my friends.

I was thinking about the implications of this. Once I leave, probably I'll come back for holidays, but beyond that, I don't know if I'll ever come back. A scary thought, but home is home. A lot of new clothes have been bought, new shoes,and new towels....the works.

I've never left my home before, so maybe the outside world will be a bit new. I don't know what to expect at college, maybe new friends, a new life, a new me? And it's a real problem having Emo parents. They're very much on edge about this, and are getting frustrated easily. My mom is telling me to go to Calcutta, so i can at least be close to my grandparents, and she can take a transfer and settle there. No,mum, thanks. But I figure I have to do this on my own, and I can't listen to your vindictiveness any more. I love you a lot, but maybe distance between us will help our love-hate relationship.

 My dad has IBS, which went away, and is coming back, in the wake of all this. I'm pretty suffocated by his rules, and I want some distance. Oh yes, laundry will be difficult, so will getting up, and doing every thing for myself, but I must learn. I can't be near my parents always or suffer because of them any more.

 I got Electronics in Calcutta, as I mentioned earlier. Most of my relatives are literally scolding my parents, asking me to send me to Calcutta, because it's the best place in the universe and I don't think so.

Yes, the university is well known, but name isn't everything. A charged political atmosphere, teachers who cannot teach in English (I'm an elitist there, sorry), and horrible mentalities. An uncle I know literally took up cudgels and blasted my parents on the phone, and then me. I respected his opinion, but then he said it is people like me who destroy Bengal, and that I should be ashamed, for not getting into IIT, and even when I got into Jadavpur, I was throwing it away on purpose, because I was an idiot.

I told him to fuck off. sorry, I don't know him  well, and he has NO right to interfere in my life. I told him he should be ashamed for daring to speak to me in such a way, and I would have him arrested for harassment, such horrible things he said to me. I told my parents to cut off all relations with him, and they did so. The man has such a mentality that even if he becomes the King of England, he will say the sewers of Calcutta are better.

I hope to make it in BITS,goa happily. Any tips, etc. you guys send my way, will be ever so helpful. I'll literally be treading into unknown waters.

I will try as soon as possible to get back to you all, maybe in another 10 days? I shall be leaving on Wednesday, and I am getting very scared.

Special hugs to everyone on my F-list, who's been with me, through trying times, through crappy fics, through smiles and every moment of my year on LJ. I am so grateful for it all.

 I'm just waiting for all good things to happen, and I hope they do, to you all, and maybe a bit to me as well. I want to get back to studying (a large part of what I've forgotten), but which I love anyway. And to a new life, and lots of great fun and happiness.

Bye,bye....Hyderabad! Welcome, college!


HARRY POTTER POST!

  • Jul. 21st, 2007 at 2:49 PM
When life gets frustrating...
SPOILER AND DISCUSSION POST AHEAD!CAUTION!


LOTS OF SPOILERS HERE, SO PLEASE BE CAREFUL! 

DANGER AHEAD....!XD


 SORRY, for doing this so early........but I finished the book and I really want to squee! I've not done this much of fangirling since a long time.....

When life gets frustrating...

Well, suffice to say, I was going to be on hiatus for a time, but looks like the universe had other plans.

Calcutta (or Kolkata, as in it's new moniker) was waterlogged. Not flooded as yet, but the clogged drains couldn't contain the incessant rains, and the city was reeling. More than half of the city was in a problem, with waist-deep water even in the poshest streets. 

Well, somehow I made it to the counseling venue, got the seat I wanted, and went ahead for admission. The admission was a nightmare. There were 12 officials grilling us, seeing our marks lists, parents' incomes, and verifying and re-verifying at least a 100 times. The officials were mean to all the kids, demanding outlandish things like pass certificates from schools (which we never get), the buildings were cracked, water falling from the roof, and political propaganda had begun.

So we dashed out of Calcutta as soon as possible. Thankfully, my grandparents live in a good area, on the outskirts of the city, and are self-sufficient. 

Then on to Warangal. Warangal is an ancient city, over a 1000 years old, and the capital of the Kakatiya kings who ruled here. The city had developed over the last few years. The officials there were supportive, and counseling was a breeze. However, I did not get a place of my choice, so I have my heart set on BITS.

And some more rambles follow about homosexuality in India....

Taking a Break

  • Jul. 2nd, 2007 at 7:03 AM
When life gets frustrating...
 Hello everyone! 

  Well, finally something has fallen into my kitty. I'm getting into an M.Sc (Hons.) programme in BITS- Pilani, which is on par with the IIT's.   But actually this is only in the first list.

Three more lists are expected to come out, in which I can definitely shift to an engineering programme to a pure science one. Also, I will be  travelling a bit, to goo for other counselling.

 College will start by late this month, and I will be a bit AWOL. :(  I'm on semi-hiatus for a few months now....but I'll keep checking my Friend's page.

Big hugs to all of you, and hope you enjoy the 4th of July! WOOt!

Wish me luck!

Brthdays galore!

  • Jun. 30th, 2007 at 10:50 PM
When life gets frustrating...
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO 
[info]abraxas_ren  AND[info]lucindathemaid !!!! WOOT!

Stories..ahoy! Read all about it!

  • Jun. 18th, 2007 at 11:04 PM
When life gets frustrating...
After all those wonderful themes you gave me, I've done your stories, and a poem. Do kill me after you read them.

Due to LJ problems, I posted in five separate parts at [info]orange_memories

Part 1
Part 2
Part 3
Part 4
Part 5

If any of you missed the earlier post, and still want to request stories, please go ahead.

Howdy, Y' All!

  • Jun. 17th, 2007 at 11:20 PM
When life gets frustrating...

I am officially feeling loved. By everyone.

This week, I made a multitude of new friends! Hurrah! *sends hugs and warmth towards shiny new people*

I'm so happy to meet y' all! (Notice ye olde Texas Twang?) And I hope we'll have great fun burning our brains out.

And in today's news, the breaking news is (the laming news) is......I finally opened a writing journal!!!! My writing journal is [info]orange_memories , Finally, a proper archive of my writings. I hardly update to FF.net anymore.

And in other news, I actually completed a year at LJ. Huh? How did that happen? I completed it last month, in fact, and completely forgot. I'm so happy that I made such warm, wonderful friends who support me so much. *hugs and a tear* And I want to thank [info]wheezambu and [info]fenikkusuken for being the catalysts in my urge to come to LJ.

And so to celebrate.....I'm following [info]empath_eia 's example. Give me a pairing, a threesome, any character and a theme, and I will write you a drabble.

Here are the Fandoms:

Inuyasha
Heroes
House, M.D.
Numbers
CSI
Harry potter
Fushigi yuugi
Rurouni kenshin
Trinity Blood
Ranma
Full Metal Alchemist

Special cookies to those who stump me!

Thanks!

  • Jun. 16th, 2007 at 10:01 AM
When life gets frustrating...
Thanks to everyone who replied to my earlier post. I'm still fuming, though.

Breakfast was pretty civil, and my mum talked to me. Dada tried, but I won't talk to him.

I'm still pissed off, but your kind comments helped me so much.

I'm deleting that post, you people do not need to read about parents like mine.

An update- And some poetry

  • Jun. 7th, 2007 at 4:40 PM
When life gets frustrating...

 Well, it's been a week after the so-called debacle..and well, everything is okay. Almost.

I've gone back to the gym and started my workout again. Strenuous, but good for health, and a lot of fun. 

I hope you all are doing great too. And yeah, i wanted to pimp some stuff  written by my dad. His poetry muse is in full swing. :)

 

Thanks for all the help...

  • Jun. 1st, 2007 at 6:39 AM
When life gets frustrating...
I just want to say thank you to everyone for replying to my rant, and helping me through this difficult time. I'm sorry I had to burden you all with my stupid problems.

Now that everything is done, I'm hoping to get into another college which is equally as good. But I'm still in denial mode. It's like cutting off your arm that has been with you your whole life.

Thank you again for saving me. And I don't care about the IIT anymore.

Some Sess-Rin Fluff and some talk

  • Apr. 25th, 2007 at 11:21 PM
I love big eyes!!

          After two weeks of labouring and begging my muse to be inspired, I finally finished, my waffy Sess-Rin songfic. I've always wanted to write a songfic, and view the reaction, so tell me what you think!

  Title: Till the End of Time
  Pairings: Sess/Rin
  Genre: WAFF, fluff, drama
  Song: Jesus To a Child- George Michael



 

 

 

  I’ve come back to Hyderabad. Back to the Charminar and my home.

 

  I was in Calcutta or Kolkata, as its new name stands to write an exam. Kolkata is the city, which I call my hometown.

 

The sunrise fills the skies at 5.30 am and you see the city begin to stir. People start waking up, and moving to the rhythm of the city. None of the offices will open before 11 am, which shocks me a bit, yet people find time to get up early, go to the market, buy vegetables and have friendly chats. Kolkata is noise, hustle and bustle, like Hyderabad.

 

But this disconcerts me. Kolkata has always meant vacation to me. Staying in my grandparent’s house in Salt-Lake, walking to the nearby BJ-market, playing in the dew-covered grass of the parks. But now, all that remains is an unbearable humid summer, where sweat pours down like rivers, and the warm winds almost scald my face and disturb midnight sleep.

 

 Needless to say, I’ve never liked the city of Kolkata. It disappoints me. My mother knows every nook and cranny of the city, and points out various landmarks, buildings that retain the red grandeur of the British Raj. But the streets are narrow, and dirty. There is a mass of humanity shuttling back and forth on the streets. But there is no life.

 

There are obnoxious Bengalis screaming and talking, as if they own the world. I pass through the markets of Kolkata, and they are the only vibrant things there. Sure, Kolkata is developing, growing and spreading its tentacles through rural civilization. There have been new skyscrapers dotting the skyline. But all I see are the old dilapidated buildings on the main roads, which would have lent charm otherwise, looking like a mark of dying Kolkata.

 

 Even as I wander through the posh streets of Park Circus, which is famous for it’s Christmas Lights, or through College street and New Market, brimming with books and goods, I finally begin to feel the pulse of the city, decaying, and rising, and decaying again.

 

 I feel alienated and lonely from the city that is my origin, and hope that it will rise like Lazarus from the dead.

 

For now, I’ll just read  “The Namesake.”


Apr. 9th, 2007

  • 6:31 AM
I love big eyes!!
            Hello, everyone, I'm back!  After that student exile, hopefully I will  be back to normal within a few days.

               Yesterday, was one of the biggest exams, in the literal sense, of my life.  We didn't know what to expect, for the IIT's are known for changing the questioning pattern anyway they see fit. Thankfully, that's over now.

            Earlier, I was facing a nice case of writer's block. But my muse started working overtime over the study period. Why is it that when we are the busiest, our mind strays?? 

         The study days were interspersed with a lot of studying and quite a bit of TV as well. Towards the end, both my mum and I freak out, and watch the idiot box late into the night. I caught "Trinity Blood" in the late nights. It is real smex!! And ideas for ficcage and already  dancing in my brain.

        Glad to see all of you again! 

 P.s.  How do you download from sites like megaupload.com?

So long, Farewell....

  • Feb. 13th, 2007 at 11:51 AM
When life gets frustrating...


Ola! *Tackeglomps and Hugs and Thank you's*

All my fics which were nominated at the IYFG have been seconded and I'm so happy! (Who wouldn't be?)

Category: Best Poem
Title: Heart of the Wind
Nominated by: Amara Anon
Seconded By: Alter Fano

Category: Best Short-Shot
Title: Image
Nominated by : Mako
Seconded By: Quirkyslayer

Category: Best canon
Title: The Depths of Freedom
Nominated by: Fenikkusuken
Seconded by: Dreaming_ Trees

And definitely, a big thank you to all on my f-list who gave me their wonderful opinions and reviews on everything I wrote.

And also, to every single one of my friends for keeping me sane.

I will be going on an exam hiatus, from the 16th of February and will not be back before mid-April. I've been through a terrible two years, and now I feel like it's been an entire era. I've been working for these exams since many years, and I've put a lot of hard work into it.

My main 12th grade exams are in March, and then I'm gonna write the big one, The IIT entrance exam, on the 8th of April.

I'll need your hugs and best wishes, and your blessings (since most of you are older than me)! Wish me luck!

And beware of all the comments I'll flood your inbox with, when I'm back!

Drabble love!!

  • Feb. 7th, 2007 at 1:15 PM
When life gets frustrating...

        All right, here is my first offering for  [info]forthrightly    's   Kiss Drabble Challenge. yep, it's a bit early, but I had to put this one down.

          For Forthright's little hentai Houshi....